HNT

Our very first HNT... Birdman likes this new shirt. Happy half nekkid thursday!

Been a while...

Sorry we have been so silent. Falling off the blog horse, so getting back on.

I have been thinking a lot about the anonymity of this blog.

I see that there are two things I really wanted to blog about. The first was about our fairly healthy monogamous (with a little kink thrown in) sex life. How to have that kind of sex life when you have 3 little ones under 5 running around. How to balance being a couple and being parents.

The other reason I wanted to experiment with anonymity was the emotions and growth I have been dealing with being a mom. I never thought I would get married, let alone have kids. I thought maybe some guy would settle for me and I would get married. I did not think about having kids. I did not think about being a mom.

I think a lot of this turmoil and forging my way has to do with the kind of mom I grew up with. She had a hard childhood emotionally, and did not come to motherhood equipped to deal with being a mom.

I wanted a place to explore these issues as they come up. A safe place... The blog with the family picks was just not the place.

However, now I have come to have this dilemma... what if I am "found out"? What if my family and friends find out about this blog?

Well, I honestly could care less if my family and friends know I love to be tied up with lovely red rope. Or that I love giving long lazy blow jobs and I love being fucked from behind in a skirt. And many other things.

However, I am kind of scared (I was going to write terrified, but could not decide if it was hyperbole) of all the "other stuff" being found out. I am not sure if that make sense. I am not sure why it scares me so much.

I think I probably worry too much about what is the right thing to be thinking. Worrying about offending and such. Worrying that if I call the lady who is has been a bitch to me the last month a bitch on my blog she will find out and be mad at me. Or if I write all about this journey of motherhood that the kids will find out how clueless and lost their mom feels.

Something to explore in another blog entry when I am not so bone tired.

I am toying with posting a HNT photo. Have to find the camera and the cable and dl the file. I guess I have about 23 hours to do it! :-)

Thanks for reading.